Dark Mind

My soul darkens ...As if someone cares
Do I want it to be bright again ... who knows ... maybe

Trying to walk though clouds of darkness is hard
because there's no path to see
No matter how you try to wave  it out your face
It always puts it self right back into place

Just like people words........

I repress the dirty ass smug looks
That I see on your face
Even though it fits you perfectly

The names calls you give me
Saying that you hate me so passionately
An you have the audacity  to look me in the eye

You narrow minded FUCK
Could you really give a flying shit

Hurting peoples feelings is your job
An I thought your job was to worry
About yourself  but obviously
Your job isn't paying you enough

Subconscious Mind

In your mind something tells you that you shouldn't or should do something. Or maybe that forgotten thing, that you wanted to say but didn't. 


I catch people on an occasion, about to say something, but always end up saying. Oh it's nothing, or I was about    to say it but I forgot what it was.
That's get on my nerves, it can be confusing in a way.
Like if a person been with you for about two years. You know that they want to say I love you, or express their selves in a special way only you would understand. When their about to say those magic words their eyes look to the right, as their shoulders shrug to the left and they might even fiddle with their fingers, while taking long silent in takes of air. Then you say to them, what where you going to say.
Then they say, nothing. I was just thinking about what I was going to do tomorrow. It was on the tip of their tongue. Once again they fail to express their true feelings, but yet their strong enough to say that un-forgetful punch line.
Here's another one. Your parents, that always pushed you to be your best, because that would be the only way express them selves.
They also never say I love you that often. your parents show you though the things they give you. Or how hard they push you to be all you can be. Then when on their death beds they tell you how much they loved you. They tell you about the things they watched you do, and how they are so pound to have you for child. telling you all the things you wished you what have heard when you where younger. Now you finally heard it for yourself, an you also have some closure to express your love back to them. Unfortunately you only have an hour or less to say something meaningful back.... the meaning to this story was they said never mind for the longest time and now that they have no time they'd wish they have.


Here's another one. Your daughter who wanted to talk her parents just to have a conversation. It could be about something funny or stupid or maybe something serious she wants to talk to you about. Your parents are to bizzy. Your mother saids she has to cook dinner and she had a long day, your dad is not a very listener. Plus he say's he has to get up early in the morning to provide for the family so you can have a roof over head and blah blah blah. then he closes the door. To bad for the daughter she on had ten words in her question and her father say's that whole paragraph on just having to go to bed.... excuses excuses. Of course she gave up on trying to ask that one question. She just wanted to be respectful and listen to her parent tell her that they have no time for her. Thats what families are like to day it's kinda like you make excuses, because you probably think your daughter is going to talk to much.
Now when she comes to tell you something and you look back at your daughter waiting for her to say something so you can interrupt with an excuse. Then she does the never mind i just remembered. From that day on that what you will here. now she reaches out to other people to get that attention. as blunt as this sounds she becomes the whore of the school. The parents found out by the janitor, who was walking in the back hall ways. when he saw someone's daughter giving head to the boy she only knew for two days. Then the parent are shocked that your daughter has such low low self-esteem.


The meaning of that story would be people start going back and forth with the never minds and forget what's in between the line. then act shock as if you didn't see that coming when you where the cause of the situation.