I lie awake with the bothering unanswered pressuring questions.
Why can't people accepted me for being me and I'm not talking about me being gay either? I'm talking about the way I think, religion, and how I speak. Why can't people just be happy with me wanting to have a decent life, a good life? Is that so hard to accept? I mean its not like I'm selling drugs, beating up people or killing, stealing, lying or cheating. Why can't people accept the answer to the questions they just asked me? If your not ready for the answer then don't ask the question. How come people can't accept that I am a good person that doesn't have a religion. As soon as they find that out they want to be the first ones to recruit me like I'm part of a army.
If I say I don't to be involved, then they say something like, "I will pray for you" or "the devil is always going to be right behind you" or "you need Jesus in your life". If I don't run and stay their long enough, they will start to tell me information in a question formation, like "you know being gay is a sin" or "did you know they day of judgement is coming really soon" or "do you not care about your spiritual life after death" or "have you ever went to church" or "did you know if you don't believe in God then your going to hell, here let me show you" or last but not lease "do you believe in heaven or hell' followed by "do you worship the devil".
When I say NO!!!! No No No No, to all those questions people have a facial expression like I just killed their mother and cut off her head and laid it down on their welcome mat and got away with the murder.
I thought my problems were all solved just to find another one peaking within the darken shadows of crippling falling building. Those type of people make my life a living hell. They seem not to understand why I picked that choice and it's definitely not because I'm gay. Most gays who are just like me would just say "I don't believe in that because I'm gay and you don't accept me anyways".
But that wouldn't be my only reason, I have like 20 reasons
Thats not why I don't believe. I left that world behind for a reason but people are so judgmental about my reason. If it's true and I can't see it with my eyes followed by proof that you can back up, then thats what I believe. Not faith, nor hope, miracles, magic, fairy tales, cartoons, or a person who rose from the dead, because clearly dead means having lost life, no longer alive. and die means to cease living; become dead; expire or to cease existing, especially by degrees; fade. Which basically means to me he was in a comma, because theirs still sin and many more sins to come. So where is the repent?
To die it would have to be when you body starts to decompose within 12 hours then you will start to smell and then your body will expand, swollen, skin will turn colors then fall of your bones. So you mean to tell me he was a walking dead person. Thats when the word miracle starts to pop up and come in to play. See back their was no technology or a such thing as coma.
Some mothers and fathers would die for their children, they know their not coming back.
Why are people not paying their respects or even respecting their parents at lease you can see them. In less your parent are horrible and have bad parenting skills and know they wouldn't die for you or even help you for that matter then I can see why would not pay respects.
that's only one my biggest reason for not believing.
The second reason is.................
I"M NOT GOING TO BELIEVE IN SOMETHING THAT KILLED TRILLIONS OF PEOPLE OVER THE YEARS ALL THE WAY UP TO FIRST HUMAN BEINGS
FOLLOWED BY..................... some don't even exist anymore
The Africans- for 700 hundred years killed millions, raped, sold
The Egyptians- the civilization is gone but their still living but their civilization was wipeout now you se pyramids and monuments with just tourists
The Aztecs - wipeout same as Egyptians
The Mayans- wipeout, same as Egyptians
The Native Americans - killed 30 million, barely living now most live on reservations
The Incas- wipeout same as Egyptians
The Jews- got kick out of their country then Hitler got a hold of them
The early Australians wiped out
THERES NOT ONE PLACE ON THIS EARTH THAT HASN'T BEEN KILLED FOR RELIGION OR BECAUSE OF RELIGION
AND THIS IS ALL FOR A PERSON THAT HASN'T EVEN BEEN SEEN BEFORE
THAT MY SECOND REASON then theirs eighteen more.................... at less I have proof and show it instead of saying EVERYONE HAVE FAITH IN ME EVEN THOUGH YOU HAVN'T SEEN ME BFORE
